Tomorrow's Meal Plan

I'm attempting to plan out my meals and have them prepared ahead of time. So here is my menu for tomorrow..

Breakfast:
Jamba Juice copycat oatmeal w/out brown sugar or soymilk 175 calories
3 Cuties 120 calories

Lunch:
Veg soup 280 calories
5 crackers 80 calories

Dinner:
Garden Pizza 245 calories
Side salad (not counting calories in bagged salad)
FF Ranch dressing 48 calories

Dessert:
Roasted Pear 81 calories
greek yogurt w/granola 110 calories



Grand total= 1139 (yes I know that its under 1200, but i'm not counting calories in veggies)

Weight Watchers

I canceled my weight watchers membership this afternoon. I went to a meeting once in the 3 weeks that i've been doing it, haven't lost anything and figured that I could use the $43 a month towards something else. I'm quite happy with my decision. Weight watchers is a good system, but the new plan just isn't for me. I'm finding out I have way too many points left and its just not flexible in that regard. I'm also spending way to much of my day stressing over the points and feel like i'm always thinking about food. I'm going to focus more on my workouts and less about what I am eating. before you all freak out..I do plan on switching from counting ww's points to counting calories. so i'm not completely throwing my diet out the window ;) I will be planning my meals out in advance that way all I need to focus on is what my menu says.

Jillian Michaels 6 week six pack

I am not a fan of this DVD. I tried it today and so far its my least favorite of her videos. Maybe when i lose more weight I might like it, but right now most of the moves are too difficult for a beginner. Oh well, I shall move on to my other one tomorrow. I've been torturing myself with reviews/blogs about her 90 day body revolution and really want to try it. Unfortunately for me its $134 (or 4 monthly payments of $30 plus shipping) and I'm already paying $43 a month for weight watchers. I'm bummed because I could have saved the $10 from the one I just tried and put that into a fund to purchase this. I thought that DVD would be a good alternative to this program and I could just switch up my DVD's to get sort of the same results. WRONG :( So now I feel like I wasted money.

Blog

I've spent about an hour trying to jazz this blog up and am finding it most difficult. I am definitely not a techy type person. Sorry if its a tad messed up right not, I'm sure eventually I'll get it worked out.

Today was a long day for both Cassie and I. I went into work this morning at 9am to 12pm for a friend at work who wasn't feeling well. Spent the 3 hours I had off in between shifts running around gathering info for the divorce and making sure cassie has what she needs for her dance competition on sunday. Went back to work for my shift at 3 and got off late. After all that a friend needed to vent so we met up at Applebees for a drink. I rarely go out and hardly ever drink. I'm sure i will be paying for tonight on the scale at my next weigh in. It was still nice to get out. Cassie and I finally got home at 10:45pm and now I have to wash my work clothes for tomorrow. Thankfully my washer is quick.

While we were chatting, my friend suggested that we write up 10 index cards with rewards on them and then once a week weigh-in in front of each other. If we lost weight then a card is drawn out of a hat/jar whatever and we can at that time go do/get that reward. If no weight is lost or is gained no reward. This sounds like a good plan to me. I think that at this point in our lives we both REALLY want to lose this extra weight that we will both follow through with this.

Working out

I'm not much of a runner. In fact I only like to do it on the treadmill and for a short time. But I came across this blog called Runs for cookies. She lost 125 lbs in 16 months. From looking at her blog it would have taken less time but she had an accident that set her back some. Either way she is totally inspirational. Well worth taking a look at her page.

Today I was asked to go workout with a friend. I LOVE working out with someone, but plans never seem to aline. So instead I decided to start Jillian Michaels 30 day shed. Its a DVD that your supposed to do for 30 days. I've started it multiple times but would stop after 2 or 3 days because I was too sore to want to continue. The plan is to follow through with it. I have 2 more of her DVD's on their way and will add those in when they come along with my walk away the pounds 5 mile one and plan to continue using my elliptical during TV time.

I will get skinny, I will get skinny, I will get skinny. Hmmm think it sunk in. ;)

Alyssa's Baby

Saw my friend Alyssa today and her beautiful new baby CJ. He really is the cutest little boy. Cassie was so excited to see him and talked about our visit all the way home. She really loves being around Alyssa and I think was more excited to see CJ then me (and I was pretty excited). We will definitely have to get together more. I can't wait for her to be released to work out. I need someone to work on losing this baby fat with.

I am a little sad now that i'm home. We were supposed to hangout with our new babies together. So today was a little bitter sweet. But I am so very happy for her and truly going to enjoy spoiling that little guy.

Snacking issues?

I saw this on pinterest today and thought what a great idea. Now I wonder if I'd actually use it. Apparently you take your healthy snack options and put them in a container in your fridge, out in front of course and then since this is so accessible you'll be more tempted to grab something from this container vs that bag of chips that normally calls your name. Anyone try something similar? Did you have success?

Motivation

I've struggled with staying on track with losing weight. Tonight I talked with a friend from Oregon who is one of those friends that doesn't let you BS your way through anything. She never lets me have an excuse for why I'm not doing something. I was attempting to explain why I never workout at the Y (my go to one is because I work there and don't want to deal with coworkers/members while I'm working out) and she's like "if you wanted to go workout you would. There's plenty of other Y's you could go to". Sooo guess what I will be dragging myself to tomorrow. Yep you guessed it The YMCA in Prior lake, why because its the one I like and don't know a single person there. She also motivated me to use my elliptical while watching the Biggest Loser tonight. I didn't do the full 2 hours, but I did manage to do 1.5 hours. So still a win in my opinion. I think everyone needs at least 1 friend that's willing to call you out and that you don't hate because they did.

As part of my 10 goals for this summer Cassie and I made a vegan lunch (well minus the bun, it contains milk) It was 360 calories. Could have made that slightly better, but it was very good. Even Cassie liked it :) After lunch we made some vegan cupcakes from a cookbook called Vegan Cupcakes take over the world. Very yummy 150 Calories and 3 WW's points. While the cupcakes were cooling I got on my elliptical and did an hour while watching Dr Oz. Over all I think I had a good day working towards my goals.

Conference today

I have the most wonderful friends and family that anyone could ever ask for. It's days like today that remind me that I am truly blessed. Today was my pre trial conference for my divorce. I think it went well. Not 100% sure though because I sat in a small room throughout it, didn't even know that it had started. My lawyer handled everything. I did find out some interesting information though, apparently I watch his lawyers children at the Y. Hmmm isn't that a conflict of interest?

On another note. I'm struggling with how to deal with his family during this. I have become close with his sister. Whom I have known since she was 11, now 23. I didn't think that our relationship would be affected in such a way that it is down right awkward chatting with her. I feel like she see's me as the enemy. This makes me sad. Maybe someday it won't be like this.

Weight Watchers and Biggest Loser YMCA Kids Stuff

I've signed up for Weight Watchers and plan to go 3 months. I HATE that I'm paying $40 a month to go step on a scale, but I want to see if it helps keep me on track. I'm only giving myself 3 months because I figure that's as much out of the tax money I can justify at this point in time and If I don't stick to it then I'm not wasting too much time on it. I went to my first meeting yesterday and was sad to find out I only went down 4 lbs from my last pregnancy weigh in. Which means I must have gained weight these last 5 weeks.

I've also started a Biggest Loser Competition at the YMCA in my department. I'm having everyone who wants to sign up pay $5 to participate and at the end of the 12 weeks whoever has lost the most % wins the money. There will also be a 2nd and 3rd prize. So far I have 8 participants. I'm kind of excited. It means more motivation for all of us.

Waterfalls

This was taken on one of our camping trips here in MN. I love waterfalls and very much looking forward to taking a trip Oregon when I can take Cassie to Silver Falls. For those who have never been there its this trail of 14 waterfalls and its truly an amazingly relaxing place

New life, New Me

February 13th 2012 is the day my new life officially begins. This is the day of my pretrial conference for my divorce. Which is a scary thought, happy, but scary. I've waited over 6 months for this day. I'm an old fashioned girl that believes with all of my heart and soul that when you marry your married for life. However, when your spouse cheats on you it's more than acceptable to divorce them and move on with your life. That is exactly what I intend to do and I'm better off without him in so many ways.

I'm taking this opportunity that my soon to be ex husband has given Me and running with it. I will no longer be looking over my shoulder worried about what he will say, do or think about my every move. I can go to the Y to workout and not worry about him complaining about the amount of time I'm gone. I was able to buy myself an elliptical and didn't have to think twice about it and stress over his reaction to the purchase. It's been an odd, but incredibly wonderful feeling.

I should *fingers crossed* be released to workout within the next two weeks. I go in for my postpartum doc appointment at that time. We've been worried about how I'm healing because of my returning to almost full activity way too soon. I've had a lot of pain that I shouldn't so in for an ultrasound I go. I'm also being seen for postpartum depression, which is something I've never thought much about before. It's one of those things that you know about but think 'oh I'll never have that'. Then again I never thought I would give birth to two beautiful babies only to have to say goodbye to them.

This has been the hardest 6 months of my life and I will be thankful for this mess to be squared away soon