Monday, September 3, 2012

still trying to heal

I'm having an emotionally hard long weekend. I'm having trouble sleeping because my mind wont shut off, which not only leaves me cranky the next day, but also extra sensitive. Lately while chatting with some friends they've been complaining about their multiple children and as well meaning as they are say "Aren't you glad that you only have 1?" or "you only have 1 so you wouldn't understand". This in turn makes even the simplest things like walking by the baby stuff at Walmart make me want to cry. I was discussing a situation with my mom about the fact that I AM a mom of 3 not 1 and had to take a long pause because I was crying while trying to explain that even though I know what these people are saying and I know that they don't mean to upset me, it still does. I hope that in time comments like this wont hit me so hard, until then I will continue to attempt not to show how hurtful these come off as. People can't tiptoe around me forever right? It's helped a great deal for me to stay at my sisters house. I've been able to have some me time and time with other adults on a more constant basis. I think I really needed that. Hopefully soon I'll be in my own place because I know its crowded here, but I'm so very thankful that I've been able to stay here for a bit, if not only for the emotional support that I've been able to get. My family in MN is very supportive there's just something different when its available when I need it 24/7 (not that I use it that much :) )

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